Yesterday, I didn’t plan a thing for me. It showed.
I ended up with about 4 hours of sleep the night before, and not all at once. That does NOT equal a me who is functional on all levels. It also meant that I skipped my morning workout in favor of 2 of those last 4 hours of sleep…by the time I had a spare hour between work and my brother’s 40th birthday dinner, I could barely keep my eyes open, let alone think about working out.
I didn’t pack a lunch. I didn’t pack a snack. I grabbed ONE bottle of water. Not good for someone whose office is their car for the entire day. I did end up going to the drive thru out of necessity, but I got a side salad (basically lettuce since I took all of the fatty yummy seeds, croutons, cheese and dressing off) and waited until I had 15 minutes to swing by my house. I put on a smidge of my own better-for-me dressing and wolfed it down.
For a snack when I was starting to have serious stay awake issues (again, NOT good when I’m not only trying to work but DRIVE), I stopped and got a small coffee and a Kind bar. Could have been worse. At this point in the day, I tried to use my beloved food/exercise tracking app (ps – you can friend me – TaraMKL) on my phone, but it was acting up and wouldn’t work right then.
At dinner, I didn’t have many options and I was so tired — I just decided to enjoy. Had a few stuffed mushrooms, some lasagna a big salad, a piece of bread and two small glasses of wine. I also had just a taste of the desserts instead of a gigantic serving of all of them, which is what the tired, emotional me WANTED to do.
I think something new for me is that instead of saying “Screw today – this sucks!” like I would have done even just a few months ago, I decided to do the best I could and minimize the damage.
The first thing I did this morning was sit down and plug it all in. I ended up almost 900 calories over my goal, but as I put in the foods that I ate, instead of punishing myself for having such a big eating day — I actually was kind to myself as I realized what I *could* have eaten instead and how much worse it would have actually been. BIG PROGRESS over here in the be as nice to myself as I am to others department.
Sooooo, basically — if you are looking for a Coach who has perfect days ALL of the time and works out like a badass EVERY day…you haven’t found her. If you are looking for someone to walk beside you as she navigates her own journey in the midst of real-life chaos and at the end of the day wants to just feel good about the choices she’s making in the hopes that she is growing as a person? You might have found her. 🙂